Sunday, November 28, 2010

Feeling Confident

I'm feeling much more confident than I was just a few days ago that I will pass the pre-op tests.

I saw my acupuncturist, Dr. Mai, yesterday afternoon. He felt that my distended stomach, due to fluid overload, was putting pressure on my chest and giving me chest pain. He said that he did not feel that the problem was primarily cardiac, only secondarily because of the pressure. He gave me some herbs to help with fluid retention, and I have upped the strength of my dialysate to take off some water weight.

Since then, I no longer am struggling to breathe just from crossing the room. I am able to walk quite a bit farther before the symptoms arise. I am sure that by tomorrow morning when the tests are conducted that all will be in order.

This is a huge relief, taking a lot of emotional pressure off me. You see, if I don't pass my pre-ops, then everyone's surgery is off. So it's not just my life that I would be jeopardizing but three other people's as well. Having everything go smoothly from this point on not only saves my life but the lives of three strangers. We all need to be seen as healthy enough to undergo surgery, surrounded in white, divine light and blue, healing light.

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Perhaps my friend Mark summed me up best when he called me "a mystical grammarian." I am quite a mix--otherworldly, ethereal and in touch with "the beyond," yet prone to being very precise and logical, when need be. Romantic in the big-canvas meaning of the word, I see the world as an adventure, as a love poem, as a realm of beauty and wonder.

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