How Much is My Life Worth?

My friend Daphne sent me a link to a CNN story about California's new living-donor registry and New York's interest in an opt-out organ-donation program. Instead of people having to explicitly state that they wish to donate their organs upon their death, the state would assume that you do unless you opt out.

The comments on this story were fierce--on both sides. It's amazing to me how many people are concerned about what happens to their bodies after they're dead. As one sarcastic commenter wrote, if you need to be buried with your organs, maybe you should also be buried with all your wives and your slaves. That was pretty funny, but some of the comments weren't. One that especially disturbed me was someone who wrote that transplants should not be performed because they're too expensive. The father of a young boy who had been on dialysis for eight years before receiving a kidney transplant shot back that dialysis is far more expensive than a transplant. The first commenter didn't respond, but I can imagine him saying, "Well, then dialysis is also too expensive, so we shouldn't allow that either."

This made me wonder: How many people would vote to turn off my dialysis machine? How many people would prefer that I was dead? Am I wasting taxpayer money (since all dialysis patients are on Medicare)? Is my life worth the money that is being spent on keeping me alive? Do healthy people think of sick people as useless or as too expensive to keep going or as better off dead? What would I have to do in order to make myself valuable enough to be considered worth saving?

I don't have answers for these questions, but the pondering of them made me very sad. This general dismissiveness of the world was coupled with dismissive comments earlier in the day from someone who let me know I had disrupted his day by calling him. Perhaps part of the inconvenience or discomfort he felt was due to me being a dialysis patient or a diabetic or a heart patient or someone with a broken hip. One of those people who, in the opinion of some or many in our society, is wasting money that could be better spent elsewhere. Perhaps on buying more killer drones for use on Pakistani civilians or giving more money to Wall Street bankers or building even more prisons. Yes, there are so many ways to facilitate death.